Oh hey, here I am again. Hiatus after hiatus. I don't know why I neglect this blog so much either, but I can offer some theories.
Theories, in the end, is all I have.
My first theory is that I spend all day on the computer, at work. So it would make sense that I would subconsciously avoid more computer usage when I am home. That seems unlikely though, seeing how much time I spend on my phone, which is basically a tiny computer.
My second theory is that I am a lame and lazy ass, that's it. I am so lame and lazy that I would not spend the time to really sit down, let loose, and really cultivate my writing, work on my craft.
Isn't that right, I am trying to "work on my craft", like as if I am going to become a writer.
The thing is, I don't know what I want to become. But I am not proactive enough to find out. Therein lies my pathetic predicament.
What is living like? What is living life like?
I change things about myself. Exterior things like hair. But I don't go and change what's inside.
Zero. Motivation.
I spent a little time reading my previous blog entries. I used to be so much more poetic. That has all been lost.
I always thought that when I grow older, I will become a better person. Better how, you ask? I am not sure either. But just
better. If my 20-year-old self saw me as I am today, I don't think she'd be too impressed.
Sobering thought, isn't it?