Working out

Lately it's become quite clear that I am devoting much of my free time into self improvement. Particularly in my fitness. I think ever since I stopped going to Rachel's bootcamp, I always feel like I am not doing enough to maintain my fitness. 

Fitness, because it's not really something you can fake, that means I actually have to buckle down and put in the time and effort to change things about myself. Something I haven't done in a really long time. 

Gym time, water time. Maybe it's just an urge to not be left behind. Humans are, in the end, living in societies and cannot get away from trying to fit in with a group. I want to fit in, so that means I want to join people for gym and OC practices. 

But physical exercises help me to clear my head. And lately the stupid way that I am completely obsessed with my phone, I think it's a good thing. 

I am going to stop now. Because my brain is mushy and useless. And lately I just feel like I am a total failure. 

Grateful

Today is Thanksgiving. I know what it stands for, but I have never celebrated it, probably because my family never did. It's funny how your family and upbringing influence you as much as it does sometimes. 

All over my Facebook feed I see people putting on their status update how grateful they are for things in their lives: family, friends, democracy. I suspect it might be PMS but I just can't think of anything to be thankful for. So I am going to try harder. I am going to try to be more thankful. 

I am thankful for my boyfriend. He keeps me sane and he makes me happy everyday.  We have things to talk about. And we can go out and do things together. I really appreciate it when I see him in the gym, I get inspired and try to do more reps or heavier weights. 

I am thankful for my health. I can still run and go out and do different activities. I hope this goes on for a while longer because I feel like health allows me to be my own person, if that makes any sense. 

I now the usual essay format is that you have 3 examples of something. But right now all I can hunk of are these two. Because first I am distracted, and second of all I am disappointed in myself lately for all the procrastination I have been doing. No more. I am so tired of this. No more. 

That's my Thanksgiving.