I don't know if this is normal...

... but I have this constant pain in my right foot, near the base of the littlest toe.

Just joking, the foot pains I get are of the normal kinds from standing all day.

However, are normal 25-year-olds dealing with consistent youth delinquency and meeting vice-principals?

Or the improbable task of paying for $130,000 of mortgage (plus 6%+ interest) while her yearly income is a meager $30,000?

Or living in what the $130,000 has paid for: a construction site, with full-on jackhammer action and stuff?

Or dealing with racist disrespectful strata council members and incompetent disrespectful construction personnels?

All I'm asking is, is this normal?

Because right now it doesn't feel like it, really. I want to have faith, and I want to be positive. But so far I just can't see the light. If before when I realized that I could not pursue my dream and move to Japan, it was like being hit by a car, then this time when I realized that I am leading a somewhat sub-standard life, it's like being roasted alive slowly.

And don't give me the bull on looking to the less-fortunates to realize my good fortune to have roof over my head, family surrounding me, steady employment, and freedom. Because I have always found comparing oneself to the less-fortunates is a snobby thing to do. There is no comparison, period.

I might just being emo right now, but those are the facts of my life, and I don't like it one bit. Neither do I have any solutions for them, except carry on being roasted and continue being in denial.