The other day I was talking to an angel, and we were talking about how outside of work, neither one of us are the outgoing type. She said she is extremely shy, I thought that was not possible, because she would chat to customers and generally make everyone around her very comfortable. She thought I was outgoing, because I would tell stories about my get-togethers with people from Aberdeen. I usually say yes if people from work invited me to something, because those people know how to have a good time, it's easier to go along with them. Whereas if it's with my own friends (count them, 3, three people), I can turn them down with stupid reasons like, "I'm watching TV."

We also talked about friends, or in my case, a lack of friends. She asked me what do I do if I felt frustrated or anything, just basically need to let out some steam. My answer was, just bottle it up, bottle it all up. How unhealthy, non? But that's what I'm used to. The logic behind it is that, it's so selfish to be talking about one's feelings, and dumping the emotional garbage on another person. I find it utterly unnecessary, and accomplishes nothing. That is why I don't talk about my feelings AT ALL with any other person.

What do I do then, if I reach my limit? First of all, I have no limit, I have a very high tolerance for emotional garbage. Secondly, I write blogs, like I do now. Which is probably why I really don't mind if no one comes to see my blog, because I know it's garbage anyway. Why would anyone want to read garbage is beyond me. Pity.